Website and all

Ok, so I bought myself some webspace and a domain name. I feel pretty good about that. It feels like things are finally falling into place.

No more screwing around. I'm gonna take things seriously now. Real serious.

Who the hell am I kidding? I wasted the entire day lying around and wallowing in self-pity. This whole weekend was a waste of fucking time!! I didn't get a single thing I wanted done at all. Why do I procrastinate like this? Why am I so lazy?! WHY?! I've been sitting in front of this computer for the past 2 hours, trying to get myself to work. I started browsing some sites, with the excuse that I'm looking at reference material for my own site design. Instead I just stared blankly at the same fucking forum I go to everday. WHY?!

I can't believe what I'm doing! Or rather not doing. I'm so frustrated at myself. Have to get myself to work. Have to get into gear. Have to get serious to produce work. I'm so far behind as it is, and I can't afford to wait any longer. I have to start, but why is it so hard?

Okay, okay... let's calm down. Okay, the past couple of days have been a waste. That's ok. It's just two days... Tomorrow's a new day. I just have to get started tomorrow, and things will work out. I'll be in the studio. It'll be a nice working environment. I'll have plenty of drawing space, and a nice computer where I can start working with flash for my site. Yes, yes. Tomorrow's the day. I'll stay there all night tomorrow and get lots of work done for my site and White Currents.

If only I could believe it... T_T